Monday, February 9, 2009

So I am back in St. George after a 3 week break and time back home in Franklin. I think I could have spent just a little too much time at home this break. Like mom said, I got comfortable in my old home routine. Wasn't having to do a lot for myself, just relaxed and was taken care of by my sweet mother for the most part. I am now back in utah and don't have plans to go home for a good visit in the near future. I am def struggling today missing home, and it has gotten me thinking about how much I miss home sometimes and when if ever that will go away. I love my job and wouldn't be living out here if I didn't, but sometimes I miss my family so much it hurts. And not just my family members, the way of life in Franklin, the comfort level I have there, the people I know. Being there for almost 11 years, it is hard to get up and go somewhere else all of a sudden, and to go alone is even harder. I'm not new to moving, but am new to moving on my own. I guess I am having a bad day and have been pretty weepy. I am praying that getting back into my work routine will help me get over a little of my homesickness...and some prayers for God to direct my heart. Realistically I think I will always be someone who misses home, until I have a real home of my own. I was raised in such an amazing family that it is only natural for me to miss that. I had hoped that writing all this down would help me, just by getting it out, and it has a little bit, but I don't know what will help me stop feeling this sad feeling today. Maybe I should just let myself be sad for a little while and then move on to my work week....