what to put here...

I tried to find a bible verse that talked about how God puts wonderful people in our lives for a reason, the extent of my search was google, so maybe i didn't try hard enough...

I have made it official that I am leaving Utah in May, the 8th to be exact. And it has amazed me how much support i have gotten with my decision and i don't know why, but I am surprised at how much of a life I have built here in Utah. I guess because I am almost always on the go, it surprised me that when i slowed down that there are all these people who care so much about me. And if i wasn't so attatched to being close to my family then i could see myself staying here for a while in this world I have created for myself. But alas, family is who I want to be close to, and even though they are the driving force behind me leaving, it is already becoming hard for me to imagine myself leaving. Knowing it is the right choice doesn't make it the easy choice by any means. Keeping in touch through email and phone doesn't touch the bonds I have created in person and a part of me is fearful that those relationships are going to waver because of distance and that is something I have seen happen a lot in my life and I guess I am hopefull and fearful that they will hold up and know that there is a good chance that they won't, hard to admit to myself. It is hard to prepare myself to let go of certain friendships while i still try and get the last few drops of fun out of them. Soudns self defeating right? Just whats in my head at the moment, it helps for me to write it down sometimes and not feel so alone in my sad thoughts.

Ok, enough sadness for tonight. I'm going to try to go enjoy some time with a dear friend before heading out to the snowy snowy snowy desert (said snowy 3 times for how many feet we are supposed to get)

Thanks for reading!